Set Free

I open my heart and spill these words. This i have done on many occasions. Most likely it is read by blind eyes and heard by deaf ears. Rarely is there appreciation expressed for the vulnerability i show in the attempt to console a loved one. Whats read is forgotten and what is heard is muffled. i dig deep in my heart and soul to find the perfect words to eleviate the doubts and worries of thee. Locked into deep thought i open my soul and drop my boundaries to hope in the end one living being will hear my words. I do not just write in hopes that someone will notice my passion for writing. I write to share with others what i can not say so well with my mouth. I write so that those i love and those i do not know can take their own interpretation of my words and hopefully take something with them. I take my heart out and slam it on the table and invite anyone to see. To see all the deep dark feelings and emotions others hide and confide. I have faced death and wished it upon myself with open arms because i know in death there is peace. Death to me is the ultimate end to this disgusting world that is infested with sin and sadness. But my dear Lord keeps me here. He keeps you here. So ask your self why does he have you reading this now. Are you the one person who will actually read this with open eyes and ears. Will you take from this the logic's of revealing all raw emotion that is within. I do not want to enable shame for things we feel. I do not want to enable the fear most have to open there hearts and say what is real. I tend to believe the things we hide and keep lock up end up ruling our lives. We give control to our fears by allowing them to eat us from within. I scream i yell i cry. A million tears have dropped and i feel not weak by them but strong. I pour my heart out because that is what empowers me. I am empowered by the sense of setting my heart free. So i do not think in my head should i say that to thee? I speak it and do not allow it to heighten my anxiety. When i am feeling sad i embrace this sadness through my sadness i appreciate the happiness which follows. I am hopeful through failure because each time we fail we learn. Even if its just learning that we did it the wrong way. Once we know the wrong way we can continue on our path of finding the right way. Oh anger great anger how it controls me. Anger is my least favorite of all of these. Anger is as poison that seeps within your body and with no sea can it be flushed from thee. Anger tends not to stay merely an emotion it becomes a verb in a sense, in anger we always tend to take action on whatever it may be. So i invite you to take your emotions and express them so you can be free. Do not give power to these negative feeling that may invade thee.