Africa

I sit and scan thru some pictures of Africa. I always tend to see two distinct things a beautiful land with exotic animal running abroad, then the second thing I see is sick people fighting for their lives. We have all seen the pictures of men, women, and children; their skin sucked in and bones sticking out. I think about WWII and you look at those pictures and what do you see? The same thing. People in slaved, murdered, raped, and starved. Sometime I get angry at our government, wondering why are we not helping. Did we not help in WWII. okay her is where my mind starts spinning. Reality is we have war every where. We have war in our own streets. What has this poor world become. Life never gets really good, we constantly will be at war. Only moments get good. When i look at these pictures of all these wars, there is always one picture of a smiling child. We as humans are survivors. In conditions like the war in Iraq, the war in Africa, the war in the streets, people still find those little moments that make them smile. Sometimes those little smiles are the only thing we have left to hold on to. Most of us can not even dream of a life like some of these people in these wars. A lot of times we only see whats in front of us, but we must always see beyond our selves; the world is a lot bigger than just us. It is true, we can only change one person at a time. We need to start with our selves, better us so we can help better the world one by one.

Cracking Point

Everyday that passes i wonder when does it get better when does it get easier... it seems only moments become easy.. .the big picture is always difficult to see... i am confused as to how long one must wait to see the light.. .to see the break in the cycle of hells doom... struggle after struggle occur and i no longer can up lift others heads for i cant up lift my own... i would like to write of inspiring things right now but i am at a loss... i tend to have words to help others but now i need words to help me... my faith has been shaken and i am losing sight of anything bright.. i am reaching... reaching for anything... anything positive... i am trying to find dreams and hope and faith all over again

Wine

Please tell me why.. why do people always lie... why do you say this and do that why do you say this and do nothing at all... is anger a sin, if so then i am sinning.. anger is what i feel... it is what is driving me.. it drives impulsive decisions... it makes you do what you wish you did not do... Is there such thing as a righteous anger? Is it okay to be angry for logical reasons.. I fight these things day after day and get even more angry that i am angry... wine makes the tongue loose.. wine makes the mind feel even worse... when it is good then its good but when it is bad then it is bad...when it rains it pours... and pours is the wine to my glass... do i say what i really mean or does the wine make me say what i truly do not believe.. why let go why set your self free so that you can be caught in a cage and then beaten.. you tell your self never again then you do how ignorant are me and you... so lets block and lets hide all those true feelings we have inside.. God knows how fun that kind of life is.. God knows anger and hatred are truly satens kids.. in Jesus Christ name i pray i pray you come take this anger and make it be gone like the moon at dawn... feel me with pure innocence feel me with joy and laughter of a little kid.. Please Lord recognize i am sensitive..

Failure

When you think things are right and they go wrong our first thought is we did something wrong... but the realization is even though we want it to go right God is telling us different.. but as humans we try to fight.. fight for what is not right.. and even though right now we don't understand the truth is that in time we will understand... we think we want to be with that certain someone and when it doesn't work we feel hurt but reality is that isn't who we need to be with.. we want a job but we don't get it we can be upset but that isn't the job we are suppose to have... So we actually make things harder for ourselves by trying so hard for things that are just not meant to be.. we learn nothing by success we only learn by failure... so when you think life is dishing you a plate of crap over and over the truth be told it is God making us better... so in a sense if everything is always right in your life you got to ask yourself am i becoming a better person.. no not at all.. instead when things are all going wrong praise the Lord because that means he paying attention to you and preparing you for something to come

Running

running
i have been running... running from not things i don't want... but things i want.. i run in fear of getting what i want and losing it... so you say better love lost then never loved... i say pain of loneliness is way better than pain of another... am i wrong.. does it even matter... how much control do i truly have.. how much is instinct.. can i change instinct... change what i have been turned into... so you say just let go... i say what is there to let go of... let go of me... this is me... no matter how much i hate it... i have change many things but this i can not change... because when i let go then my fears come true then i regret... i don't want to regret so i avoid.. is there any wining in this situation.. time and time again i hear lectures of how i am and how i need to be.. but this makes no difference... so am i destined to be like this for forever and always... or is God just making me this way for now.. i say i don't want things but in reality i do want them but don't want to lose them therefore i say i really don't want them... whoa what is going on... what can i do...

A Seed has Been Planted

In my soul there was a seed planted.... and at the time i thought it was growing in slow mode... but now i look and realize that the seed has grown quicker than i imagined... through my chest cavity... through my heart... out into the world this flower has bloomed.... now that the flower has been produced... it drops seeds one by one... other souls pollinate from my flower.... bringing the goods from my soul to theirs and others... i have been released.... and set free unto the world... in the name of Jesus Christ i have grown... i never thought in my growth others would prosper... but now i look upon those around me and know what i am here for... not until i started sharing the pollen did i feel the release of tension on my soul.... i realized its not what you get but what you give.... you are given gifts to share with others not to keep within yourself... have you been given something you refuse to share... do you have talents that you leave unattended and hidden.... remember they are there for us not for you;0)i am not writing this for me but for you.... share with the world my friends..all that God has given you..

Because of Men Like You

Because of men like you,
Your sisters will never love the way they should know love.
because of men like you,
Your true love will never trust you even when you are to be trusted.
because of men like you,
I've watch my mother and i bet yours cry many unnecessary tears.
Because of men like you,
Women are insecure, bitchy and difficult, from your emotional abuse.
Because of men like you,
I know women who have wished to die, tried to kill them selves, or succeed in the attempts.
Because of men like you,
Good women's hearts have been torn, riped, burned and shattered.
Because of men like you,
evey time i meet you i will put up my guard, i will not call, i will not care, i will not try, i will not bare
Because of men like you,
I will not love... i will not marry... i will not bring a child in this world in fear of...
MEN LIKE YOU

Words of the world

The words of the world are there waiting to be heard.

You do not hear them beneath the screams of pain and the echoes of cries.

Through the wind mother earth speaks, think of the times when the breeze surrounded you making you strain to continue on your path.

Then is when she tried to slow you giving you a chance to hear her out. Still you do not hear the words of the world.

You'd rather continuously fight to over talk others to hear your own voice than enjoy the voice of peace.

When there is no sound then you begin to hear the words of the world.

She tries to enchant you with the rhythms of water; the repetitive crash of waves into the shore. Even then you only hear yourself replaying your punitive thoughts.

At dawn she combines the powers of the sun and moon to form a breathtaking view of purple, orange and red skies.

Unfortunately upon your rising even with your skies calling for you to just look up and recognize the power of earth, you fail, distracted simply by your own mind filled with chaotic thoughts. Her subtle attempts only take her so far before she realizes the words of the world are not going to be heard by her temptress apparitions.

For she has blessed us with seas of all shades of blue and green, and breathtaking rain forest overrun with exotic colors that are orgasmic to our eyes. But do you stop to listen to the words of the world calling to you to save her from her own destruction.

Of course not, you wait till she screams with winds and rain, tearing your physical foundations down around you.

You wait till she explodes with lava scaring the land you once call home. Then briefly the words of the world start to seep through the poison of your mind and suddenly you see the words of the world. Her voice still you can't hear but her actions you are given no choice but to recognize. Upon your loss you swear to yourself that you will not take for granted the gifts from god to us, only to lie to yourself.

One month passes then two, month three passes and once again you do not hear nor see the power of the words. Now she cries from her own exhaustion of attempting to reclaim her place in existence. She once was worship for her gifts to man kind.

For once, man recognized her powers, she provides every necessity for man to live fulfilled. But do you hear the words of the world…Nope. Are you so naive to believe the sweat from your brow makes your seeds grow? Do you truly believe to slave your self hour after hour between four walls will make your sun continue to shine? Who ever blames the rains for the darkness which enfolds you misses the true meaning of the rain. You do it don't you; convince your self that earth can destroy you for no reason at all.

Listen and you will know the reasons of the circle of life. You think it don't you; that your life is greater than the grass and creatures which craw before you. May I say let the strong survive. The words of the world say it won't be man kind. It will be the bees that pollinate the flowers. It will be the seeds of which are already one with the earth. Neglect to accept the greater powers of life will cause you to pay.

For if you fail to bow down to the ocean, she will take your boat and strip your sands from beneath your so called lands. Also if you fail to acknowledge the power of the sun it will burn your skin and dry your lakes.

How bout the structure you call home do you think of it as your protection, don't, for the funnels of wind can run through your thoughts of protection and leave you naked to the world. I fear even with the force of mother earth upon your back you will still worship your man made buildings with pipes and wires.

She will rip down your walls in attempt to get you to hear the words of the world, but you will only shield your self behind another set of walls. So I tell you, do not waste your time asking why because you will not listen for the answers... Do not wish to be blessed when you do not even see the blessing which have already been given to you.

The words of the world say this; "your breath I give you, with your sight I give you things to see, when your hungered I give you things to eat, Remember I was here before you and will be here after you. God created me then you, the powers I carry are from god". So when you do not hear me nor see me, you are blind to Him as well. God speaks through the world, when are you going to stop to listen?