Cracking Point

Everyday that passes i wonder when does it get better when does it get easier... it seems only moments become easy.. .the big picture is always difficult to see... i am confused as to how long one must wait to see the light.. .to see the break in the cycle of hells doom... struggle after struggle occur and i no longer can up lift others heads for i cant up lift my own... i would like to write of inspiring things right now but i am at a loss... i tend to have words to help others but now i need words to help me... my faith has been shaken and i am losing sight of anything bright.. i am reaching... reaching for anything... anything positive... i am trying to find dreams and hope and faith all over again