Deception

Like the raging sea my emotions take over thee. Sickened by the thought of he. What words can I speak to draw a picture of what I seek? The wrath of pain stabbing thee continuously. If my tears were blood I would be dead, oh lord please turn these tears into the blood I speak of. Anger beating at thee, every moment it haunts me. When I close my eyes I see nothing but disgusting images of he lying in the arms of a woman that is not thee. I hate he. Screaming beneath the surface a smile is presented to the world as a cover. My insides are ripping and vile is poisoning me. The darkness is creeping into my soul, a soul that was so bright until he betrayed thee. Be gone sun and just give me night. Oh beautiful night take me away into the darkness, I wish to elope together for we are one of the same, me and you night are dark, cold and silent. Running. Running from the reality which chases me. Oh how could this be! No it can not be! Thou would never hurt me. The caress of thou hand, the soft supple kiss of his lips, the whisper of thou voice “I love you”. Thou would never hurt me. I am his angel of love. His fighter of life. Thou needs me; never no never would he betray me! The look in his eyes that say you are everything to me. The comfort of his arms oh beautiful arms that held thee. No! No! This is just a projection disguising the deception of he. I was in love with what I thought it to be. Now I know the reality and upon the acceptance of truth I hate he. Like a magician an illusion he made for thee. What I thought was truth was nothing but imagery. So farther I run in the night with my raging sea. Running from me. I wish to leave behind the parts that are following thee. I wish the dreams could be wisped away like a leaf falling from a tree. The hopes I wish I could erase like a fire which consumes the trees. The memories I wish I could slice up and drowned in the river of tears I have cried for he. The depth of my love is what kills me. It runs to the core of my soul, dear lord rip it from thee.