Silence the screams

What do you do when your breath is being ripped from your lungs by the pain inflicted in your heart. When you want to yell a million words but a gasp for air is all you are capable of. What are you to do when you want to run after something but your legs give out and all you can do is crawl.

Crawl across the rocks and dirt, degrading yourself by being so weak and pathetic. Suffocated by your own tears that flow so fast they drowned you. A cycle is a cycle.. either to follow or break.. a man is a man but yet so many more things.. A lover, a sinner, a helper, a supporter a worthless waste of flesh. A woman is a woman but yet so many other things in the same. Pathetic, Strong, A mother sister and lover.

Streams echo in my eyes i can not here anything said to me.. I drop to my knees and cover my ears to escape the excruciating pain.. but the screams are not muffled. What to do when your head and heart seemed to explode. When you pray for them to explode in hopes that no longer will there be screams or pain. But never do they let up leaving you with the suffering and no relief.

What are you to do when hopes become helpless pleas. When faith becomes a dream. When happiness is a far memory. The only strength you have left is to open your eyes and dread each moment you are awake. Wishing that for just one night you could dream of goodness instead of your subconsciousness replaying all the horrible things that bring more screams.